As someone has put it lately on the forums -- I am beginning to dislike the word WAIT! Well really for me the time does fly some how -- but what bothers me more than anything is the unknown. As we all know PGN can throw very unexpected curve balls loaded with the lack of mercy and conscience! It feels like each day I am looking or expecting a pack of wolves to gang up on me. I truly am full of gratitude, but not enough to save me many times! I fall off of the optimistic wagon alot. I want it to be easier and something more in front of me to depend on thru each step! But I guess in a way -- so as I have been told -- this paper pregnancy is quite like the belly pregnancy. Curve balls of nerves, emotions that require at times 411 calls, so to speak, but alot of 911 calls full of overboard to extreme hormones. Depression, weight gain and the list goes on! But to keep my head on the rack, -- up and standing above water and ready to tackle my day -- I tell myself that this is my/our last vacation alone, my last bathroom trip alone--per many of Mom's even my own, this is the last time I can lavish the sleep mode as long as I want-- one of my only vices. This is the last time I can call the day all my own and just do nothing if I so choose or maybe read all day or get to watercolor paint all day and just fritter putter the day away until I HAVE TO make dinner-- all this self talk has helped me pass the time without tooooo much over reaction of nerves consuming me! BUT I still ponder how much I can't wait to hold my Sweet Baby Girl for the duration and this long paragraph should be a clue of my complete depravity without this wonderful Gift of God in my arms this very moment! I am told by soooo many Mom's who were like me without children for so long until later in years and they said that after they brought their child home -- the JOY swept them away! I can't wait to turn to that Chapter in my life -- a very very long awaited chapter --and to give "My Daughter" the best of the rest of my/our Years!!! To You Hope Maayan my Love. -- Your Expecting Mommy!
Guatemala Heaven..Meeting our Baby Girl and bringing her Forever Home.... March 21, 2008
Sunday, January 20, 2008
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Outdoor Fun.....
Our Dear Sweet Hope! Life wouldn't be life without her...she is the highlight of our day all day long. She is so much fun! Her personality is really peaking now. She is a jokster. It doesn't help when I am trying to dress her or get her to stand still. She always used to work with me before, when I told her to help me.."what is mommy doing",..hold still,..help me. She always did great! Now everything is funny to her. On the flip side of that, I was warned about a possible "Latino" temper from another adoptive mom. I also get to see that side once in a while. THe little boy that I take care of during the day has brought out even more of that SIN nature in Hope...if she thinks that "Will" is violating her space...I have seen her make a face and then grab his arm for a pinch and squeeze. The first time I saw that, I was thinking, "who taught my angel that?!" At this point all kinds of new things are surfacing. We are having the time of lives, to say the least!!!!!!!
THese are just a few random photos. We have many more that we will put on the family blog link above. We got some great Zoo pictures this year....
FOREVER HOME
Update Gotcha Day to 3/15 per our bump to Costa Rica on the 13th from Atlanta
Our first Slide show.. starting with our Referral picture on October 1, 2007
An Etching of Our Journey....
Taken 2/12/08, I am 11 Lbs 10 ozs. @ 5 months 4 days old...Real Small but doing Good!!!
Here I am waiting on you Mom And Dad !!!
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